Waiting.....

Waiting patiently is not something I do well.  I am sinfully inpatient.  Therefore, this whole "waiting in the dark" aspect of the adoption process normally drives me insane.  In our prior adoptions I've been crazy over timelines.  I have stalked other people's blogs trying to calculate the timing of my paperwork approval, travel notices, etc. 
This time, however, has been different.  Maybe because I am so consumed by the busyness of our family and my job that I don't have time to think about it.  Or maybe, by God's grace alone, I'm getting better at this waiting (and trusting) thing.
Maybe I have realized that I am not in control.  Maybe I've realized that this will all happen in God's timing regardless of my incessant phone calls to USCIS, or my obsessing over travel dates, or my perfect idea of when we should travel.
Pearl needs to come home faster than Mia or Lainie because of her heart issue.  But somehow, I am at peace.  Maybe because I've been following this family's blog this week, or maybe because I am finally realizing that patience is much more peaceful than inpatience.  God's faithfulness is never going to end.  He has this.  He has her in the palm of his hand.  Her very heart is in the palm of his hand.  So, at least for today, I'm operating at a high level of peace and patience.  No promises about tomorrow.  I do know however, that thanks to God's grace, I can fall short tomorrow and start all over the very next day.  Thank goodness.